Doubts

Last week I missed my self-imposed blog publishing deadline of 12:15 PM every Friday. I was tired from heavy Spring yard work and felt that it didn’t matter all that much. Every once in a while, I get to feeling that this blog is a fruitless enterprise anyway. Most of the people I follow on WordPress write better than I do. Those who follow me are a great group of people, and I enjoy exchanging comments with them. But really, does it matter?

I did not set out to write for a living. I’ve always enjoyed writing, but rarely thought that it would lead to a paid, professional endeavor. Then, I was moved to write my memoir, “Aimless Life, Awesome God”, by an overwhelming desire to tell the story of how God saved a man like me; how He orchestrated the events of my life to save me and use me to serve others. (Of course I’ll admit, I had hopes that I’d sell enough copies to pay for the self-publishing fees. Spoiler alert, I did not.) Now, I have have not done anything great or noteworthy; I’m just a very ordinary guy trying to live a grateful Christian life.

This morning, my online friend, Dennis Peterson (https://dlpedit.wordpress.com/) published some statistics about book publishing that caused me to view my efforts in a more positive light. The average author sells less than 200 copies of a printed book, while the average self-published author sells fewer than five. My book sold less than two hundred copies, but more than five. Dennis is a skilled and accomplished writer and you should check him out. 

Also this week, a couple of my followers commented on two or three of my previous posts. Normally, I only get comments on the current post.

I write because of my gratitude for God’s remarkable work in my life so far, all eight decades. I want to share these works with you so that you will see Him as he is; gracious, merciful, and abounding in steadfast love. God is active, not just in the big events of life, but in the ordinary, everyday stuff that we mostly take for granted.

I have had my doubts about the fruitfulness of these few words I spout once a week. Only God knows. SDG

My mouth will speak in praise of the LORD. Psalm 145:21